The journey of a magical experience

Wah..lama gle x update! Dari sebelum bersalin sampai la umur baby dah sebulan... Biasala, busy yang teramat sgt... This time, I want to share some of my experience of being a pregnant lady, and the experience of giving birth.


The Pregnancy

Both husband and I plan to have a baby. But not this soon as we thought that I will only conceive a few months after stop taking my pills. But His plans are better. Alhamdulillah, my pregnancy was a very smooth one. But not that easy as I was quite tensed up by pressure from BPG (thanks to her for all the mess). Nasib baik dpt gak graduate.

Although the pregnancy was uneventful, I gained so much weight even though I didn't a lot. Mengidam..takde sangat, tapi selera berubah-ubah. Kejap nak makan tu, kejap nak makan ni. Yang tak berubah cuma fav drink: Sunkist Orange Juice. Hopefully, I will get my pre-pregnancy weight and shape back ;p


The Labour

Pagi sehari sebelum kelahiran Mohd Raihan, I had a weird dream and suddenly I felt a kicking from inside my womb. I was shocked, awaked from my sleep and quickly stood up. And there was a trickle of water coming out. Tak panik pun sebab tak rasa sakit. Confuse ada la; is it really coming? So I call my husband yang tgh ada important meeting, and he said: 'Nak abang balik ke?' Haha. Funny.

We went to the doctor and she said I had a leaking and labour is still far away, it will be tomorrow. So we went to One Utama to buy our cats' food and had tea at Old Town, then we off to the birthing centre.

That night, contractions coming in slow and steady at first, then fast and furious. I couldn't sleep at all. Bengang je dgr my hubby berdengkur sedangkan I ni menahan sakit macam nak berguling-guling. Nak tunggu pukul 4 pagi sementara doktor dtg utk bagi pain killer rasa macam bertahun-tahun. Dah bagi pain killer pun still sakit and x leh tido. Lapar tapi whatever goes in, went out. Sepanjang mengandung tak pernah muntah, ni la baru pertama kali...

Finally, my OBG doc came in and said I am going to the labour room. Can't wait for the pain to be over. Dah masuk labour room tu, doc heran apsal air ketuban x pecah2, so she did it for me. X sakit pun tapi rasa pelik air tu keluar. Haha. Then, she injected oxytoxin in my drip. After that, the contractions were really strong and painful. Allah je tahu macam mana sakit nye. Tak pernah rasa sakit sampai macam tu skali. Macam sakit maha senggugut! The doc said it will be 4 to 6 hours before the baby arrive, and I couldn't imagine how I am going to survive with the pain.

Thank God it wasn't that long. After 1 hour or so, I had the urge to push. So, I pushed and pushed with any energy that was left inside of me, and then finally, I heard the nurse said: 'Dah nampak kepala baby, cepat panggil Doktor Ummul!'. Pastu, lg la semngat I push, then Mohd Raihan pun kuar.....sume sakit pun hilang..............



Being pregnant and giving birth is really an experience so special that Allah swt granted to women only. Walaupun susah dan sakit, penghujungnya amat best skali. Now only I truly understand why Allah swt says we have to put our mothers first before our father.

The ups, downs and swings of the pregnancy

I am still digesting the fact that I have a being developing inside my womb. I am still unable to imagine what our life would be like with the coming new little member. I can't imagine what kind of mother I will be. Just one thing: I love the way my body is changing itself.

Some people ask me whether I have extraordinary 'mengidam' or not. Well, I don't really have one (or more). But here are 3 things that I want to share with you:

1. I crave for various food. Sometimes, I like to eat Gardenia Butterscotch bread. The next day, I want to throw up from just looking at the same bread. And today, I really really want to have McD chocolate sundae. I notice that I like spicy food and sweet desserts nowadays. Tom yam, masak lemak cili padi, asam pedas, ice-cream, cheese cake, frosted cake, chocolates.....
Mesti nnt the baby pun same. Haha.

2. Sometimes, I have mood swings. I just feel like crying for unknown reasons. I hate this when it happens as usually I am alone at that time. The swings know the right timing to hit me hard.

3. I can't wait for my belly to get bigger. Membuyung bak kata some of my friends. Must be really exciting to see me become so large like a living, land, walking whale.


Got to go now. See you again soon! **

Entering a New Phase

I stopped taking my pills early March. Some may think that it is too early for me to get pregnant and have a child. But I have faith in God's decision and in myself. I am a strong woman, I have always been.

Thinking about how I got to learn the fact that I am pregnant, it is quite interesting. I could feel that I am conceiving although the 3 pregnancy test I took told me otherwise. And I keep insisting my hubby to buy me pregnant moms' milk even though the tests were negative. Finally, one day, my hubby listened to me. We bought a pack of Mamil Gold milk, as well as another pack of pregnancy test.

I was very 'ciwi'. Couldn't wait for a few days before taking the test. So, before we went to sleep that night, I quietly took the test, alone, without my hubby knowing. And, voila! The other line showed up, although not very clear. It wasn't clear, but it was there. I was trembling, not knowing how should I react to the result, so I shouted, calling my hubby who was watching telly at that time. He was so happy that he almost cried.

So the next day, we went to see a doctor. A saiko doctor. He could not believe that I am pregnant as I just stopped taking the pills for less than a month. But, hey, 'kun fa yakun'! Boleh pulak doc tu tnye, "Ni kalau betul jadi, u nak simpan ke?' I was shocked, but I answered 'Yes, of course'. Heee....benci btul ngn doc tu. Bukannye nak ckp tahniah, tnye soklan gila pulak. We are not going to that clinic ever again!

I know some of my friends are worried about how I will go through my practicum in my pregnant state. I am very positive that I will be okay. Pray for our well-being, ok? But still, I am a normal human being, not a super human. Maybe at times I will feel very dead tired, hopefully you guys can support me at those times :)

Quick Update

Well... I know it has been ages since I last updated my blog. My life is unbelievably busy! I have never experienced such a busy life before this. Maybe now that I am married, I have more commitment and work to do, but I still have the same amount hours like other eligible bachelors out there, which is 24 and not 48 hours! As I have less time, but more work that others, I will just write a very quick and compact updates of my current life:

1. I think I have slightly gained weight. Maybe because of blissful happiness. Tipu la kalau I kata I tak kisah, kisah jugak sikit2, sampai kena tegur dgn my hubby because I always complain that I am now fat and he doesn't think that way. Anyway, what is more important is that I lead a healthy eating habit: No junk food! (but I cannot resist sweet temptations..cakes..ice-cream...yummmmy.... ;p)

2. I now have a baby. A cute, michivieous and naughty fluffy Persian kitten, named Marsha. No photo of her yet. I am still trying to find my leisure time to do all the uploading of the photos.

3. I hate the current Malaysian education system! There are still lots of conservative educators who still believe their way of teaching is the right one. Unable to open up their old minds to accept changes. Wait till I become one of the think-tankers...

4. My beloved husband and I now have our own sweet little home (thanks to my parents-in-law). It is small and simple, but it is our heaven. Bak kate seorang ustaz, kalau nak syurga di akhirat, ia bermula dengan syurga di dunia (i.e. kedamaian & keharmonian rumahtangga).

5. I still have the rights to moan about my life now. I know I made the choice to get married early, but I am still a human being. Ciptaan Allah s.w.t. yang kerdil & lemah. Those who said: "Tu la, sape suruh kawen awal". You guys just wait for your time. All I need from you guys is your support, not that kind of reply which sometimes, hurt me :(

6. I now will treat myself by going to the hair salon on a regular basis. Thanks to Hani, whom according to my hubby, : "hei..bahaya betul kawan ngan Hani ni, ajar sayang buat benda2 yg mahal!" (p/s Hani: Abul gurau je, eheh ;p)

7. For this month (March 2009), my hubby and I have spent a total of RM 10 000 ++. However, it is because of a useful invesment: buying furnitures and other essential things for our new home. However, it still doesn't change the reality that I am now quite broke!
Haha =D (p/s Suhaimi: sorry for the kaya. It will come, but later sketla ye...).

8. Marriage life is super-duper fantastic.


That's all for now. More coming later (but I don't know when. Biasalah, hidup busy skrg nih)

New Life

Finally, after a few weeks of craziness, I have the time to update my long abandoned blog. Sampai bersawang lah kan, bak kata Suhaimi. Bukannya apa...busy sangat la dik oii... Lepas kenduri tu, kelas pun start, everyday ada kelas, and weekened busy keluar ke sana ke mari. Ni pun x berapa sihat, jadi tak pergi kelas dan berehat. Alhamdullilah...

I am sure, many will ask me, 'How your new/ married life? or Apa rasa dah kahwin?'. Honestly, I don't know how to explain it. But, of course, I am happy. Truly happy and contented. If we think we are happy that we have a girl/boy friend or fiance, that happiness can't be compared with the happiness that a marriage gives us. To have your loved one besides you every day, to see his face and to hear his voice .... it's very blissful. Betapa indah dan sucinya cinta yang Tuhan ciptakan khas untuk suami isteri. Jadi, siapa2 nak bahagia camni, kahwin la cepat2, eheh ;p

Tapi, kahwin bukanlah semata-mata hendak menghalalkan percintaan yang terlarang je. It goes far beyond that. Bagi yang mentua dah sayang, alhamdulillah lah..tapi bagi yang belum, it is a challange for you, Kahwin bukan kahwin dengan si dia je, tapi dengan semua ahli keluarga si dia jugak. As for me, kahwin dengan si dia yang ada big family, memang satu cabaran, tambahan pulak tinggal sebumbung dengan ipar :)

With marriage also, comes a big responsibility. Bukan memadu cinta asmara je. Soal komitmen sudah pasti. Bagi isteri, keperluan suami mesti diutamakan. And for the husband, jangan abaikan kebajikan & keperluan isteri. Both partners have to be sensitive and tolerant. Hehe..cakap pandai je... but I am still learning. Yelah, baru nak masuk sebulan... x pakar pun lagi.. ;p
Dulu, sebelum kahwin, pukul 9 malam masih awal. Tapi sekarang...'Hah, dah pukul 9!'. Bujang dulu, hidup rilex je...rasa lapar, makan, kalau malas masak, buat yang cincai je. Sekarang, tak leh la nak buat camtu. Baju dulu pun, liat nak iron. And now, ironing is like my new hobby. TV pun dah x sempat nak tengok. Ape dah jadi dgn Prison Break, Grey's Anatomy & Desperate Housewives pun tak tau...xde masa nak tengok. Hu....
But all that can't beat the smile of my husband when he comes home from work :))

From my experience, marriage is not that hard. For Muslims, the simple akad is what we need. But as now, most of us have been affected by globalization and materialism, the simple thing becomes an almost imppossible mission. Some may think that I got married at a very young age, but the determination is what matters most. Although I still have another year to go, it does not mean that I can't manage my life better. Ape pun yang terjadi, I believe it happens for the best.