I hate it when confusion attacks me. I have been in this state for a while now, which has caused me to abandon my blog writing. I can't stop thinking about things. I can't stop questioning myself. And worse, I don't like to be with some people who I believe affect my confusion state, although they are innocent.
In next few weeks, I will be lonely. My close friends are going away. And I am going away too, to face my real issues back in Malaysia. These few months have been a very indescribable moments. Through all of the moments, I have gone through them alone, with Lord Almighty by my side. There were friends, but not the ones who I can cry on their shoulders. Maybe this is my fault, I don't know, but I have tried my best to be a good friend to them, insya Allah. But anyway, Alhamdullillah, thank you ever so much Allah for giving me strength and guiding me through it all. Without You, I won't be able to make through the journey. Indeed, my journey is still a long way to go.
People say life gets harder. It is undeniably true. My life has never been easier as days pass me by. I am scared of what future holds for me. But I am very thankful to Him as my life is still at a very good condition compared to those Allah wants to test.
In conclusion, I am confused and I am lonely. Life has its ups and downs. Now I am at my downside. I don't know what to do with myself. Dear God, please lift me up. I am tired of shredding tears. And please my kind, blessed readers, pray for the betterment of my state . . .
Jzkk to all!
