Hati

Hati,

Kau membimbing,
Kau jua mampu memusnah.

Hati,
Kau kuat,
Kau jua lemah tak berdaya.

Hati,
Kau lembut,
Kau jua keras seperti batu.

Hati,
Kau teguh,
Kau jua selalu berubah.

Wahai diri,
Hati yang bagaimanakah mahu kau miliki?

Once in a while, I want to blabber . . .

Assalamu'alaikum . . . Hahaha...lama betul 'cuti' menulis! Nak kata busy, tak pulak, tapi tak de ilham la..maafla ye. Tapi jangan risau, I'm still fine and okay, alhamdulillah, kering idea je... Meh nak share something about myself. Sejak dari kecik, I think I'm quite a pathetic girl. Kurus, macam tak cukup kasih sayang dan nutrisi. And I can't remember any joyous and happy memoirs from my childhood. Tapi tak kisahla kan, sbb para rasul dulu pun, zaman kanak-kanak mereka jauh panggang dari api kalau dibandingkan dengan zaman kanak-kanak sekarang. Gameboy, xBox, PS2, PS3, anime, etc etc etc. The only memory that I still remember till now is my bittersweet memories of my cats and hamsters (yes, I'm a pathetic animal lover! Can't help it!)

(Miss you guys dearly; Strawberry, Hensem & Pondan)

(May you find happiness with your new mom and life partner Greyboo)

Talking about my boundless love for animal... Actually, I really wanted to be a vet, but my brother had 'killed' the dream by saying: Buat pe jadi vet, bukannya membantu pembangunan negara! So now, here I am, studying to be a teacher with a high hope that in future, I may build the better nation. I love animals so much that I cry whenever I see they are cruelly treated. I cry every time my cats or hamsters crossed the Rainbow Bridge. Till one day...a person made a 'shocking' statement about me: that I love and care for animals are greater than my love and care towards human beings. Gosh!! Astagfirullah hal'azim...
However, she brought up some good issues by making that statement.

First, don't judge a book by its cover. We, human, should never judge other people. Look Al-Hujurat, verse 12. No one should judge, except for Him alone.People that we judge may be way better than us.

Second, setiap orang berbeza. Every one is different, even identical twins! Maka, cara setiap orang menunjukkan rasa kasih sayang dan prihatin adalah berbeza. Sesetengah orang menunjukkan rasa sayang dengan sentuhan, dan ada juga dengan kata-kata atau bebelan. You may not like the way he/she carries herself, but then..look up in the al Qur'an (sorry tak ingat surah & ayat apa), and you'll find that Allah swt has clearly stated that we are different from each other so that some of us are the challenge for some of us to face. Accept and live with it with an open heart. Selagi kita tak boleh terima orang lain dengan dada yang lapang , then something is wrong with our heart & iman = need biopsy!

Third, bagi pencinta haiwan, cara mereka menunjukkan rasa sayang terhadap haiwan dan manusia amatlah berbeza. Sayang pada haiwan adalah atas dasar simpati, dan sayang pada manusia lahir dari rasa kasih yang sejati lahir daripada hati. It's kind of hard to explain, but animal lovers out there, you do understand this, don't you? Some people question, why we don't always treat humans like we treat our beloved pets. Well, in a way, beloved pets are more 'comforting' and 'soothing' than most human beings. Hehe..I'm not biased! I love all you people & animals out there equally! Knowing and seeing people are treated cruelly and unjustly hurts as much as knowing and seeing animals & environment treated in such ways. Enough of blabbering. So, basically, I am a pathetic animal, nature & human lover. And I show my love and care towards these three magnificent creation of Allah swt in three distinct ways. You really can't compare and contrast them, as it is not fair for me!

Anyway, saya sayang anda semua, fillah (really, even if I don't know you =D )

(Musang my hero...hope you are still there when I go back home!)