Mohd Raihan

He is one year old now. ONE YEAR OLD!! Amazing how having a child makes it easier for me to go through a year, without realizing we have managed to go through 12 months.

Raihan, my darling baby boy is really active now. He eats a lot too ( and then he will suffer from constipation). Amazing little boy, he is. Dah pandai sebut bird, bes ( as in habis) and nak. Palaing best bila dia sebut nak. Pantang nampak orang pegang makanan atau cawan, mesti dia pegi kt org tu smpail ckp 'Nak! Nak!'. Comel sungguh.

Now I have to think how to mould his behaviour sbb kdg2, he can be violent! He bites and pinch people! Harap2 perangai ni x berterusan...

Oh, now I am also have started thinking of having a baby girl..Haha ;p

Think before you choose

I have been teaching for only nine months. Now I think I might have regretted my decision. I was naive when I made my decision about six years ago.

Bukan semua orang mampu menjadi guru. Perlu hati yang ikhlas, usaha yang mantap dan berterusan. Me? Sometimes ikhlas, most of the times, MALAS. I think I don't have the most important element to teach which is PASSION. Without passion, you cannot do anything.

Sometimes, life takes its own turns. When it does, we discover more about ourselves. Maybe there is a sliver lining behind all these hurdles. What I am sure right now is that I don't have any passion in teaching. I teach just for the sake of menghalalkan dan memberkati duit gaji. I do what I am supposed to do, I don't push myself far for I don't have the passion.

I realize that in our life, most of us end up doing things that we are most passionate about, regardless what degree or qualifications we have. Thus it is important for us to search for our passion in life so that our life becomes more meaningful and more fulfilling.

Women's Power

Walaupun baru setahun lebih bergelar isteri dan baru 5 bulan bergelar ibu, saya amat kagum dengan kehebatan wanita yang bergelar isteri dan ibu. Hal ini adalah disebabkan oleh beberapa faktor:

1. Walaupun penat bekerja di pejabat atau sekolah, si wanita masih bertenaga untuk memastikan rumah berada dalam keadaan yang teratur. Paling kurang, sinki bersih tanpa pinggan mangkuk yang kotor.

2. Dalam masa yang sama menjaga keperluan anak, si ibu masih mempunyai masa untuk mengemas bilik tidur dan menggosok pakaian suami dan diri sendiri. Begitu juga dengan membasuh, menyidai serta melipat pakaian.

3. Malam-malam tidur si ibu tidak pernah lena kerana perlu bangun untuk menyusukan anak. Si ayah? Tidur enak dibuai mimpi sambil berdengkur.

4. Sebelum keluar rumah untuk bekerja, si isteri mampu menyediakan keperluaan anak untuk dihantar ke rumah pengasuh. Si ibu sempat memandikan anak di samping menyelesaikan pelbagai kerja rumah yang lain.

5.Walaupun banyak perkara yang perlu diuruskan, si wanita ini tahu segala selok belok rumah. Contohnya, dia tahu di mana hendak mencari sesuatu barang, tak perlu tanya suami, "Bang, baju tido anak kt mana?".Well, it is because she is the organiser of the house!

Oleh itu, para suami di luar sana, ringan-ringankan lah tulang bantu si isteri. Berikanlah penghargaan atas segala pengorbanan dan penat lelah isteri. Ingat, bukan anda seorang yang bekerja mencari rezeki! Dengan adanya isteri yang bekerja, kurang beban kewangan anda. For me, dalam menguruskan hal rumahtangga, si suami yang patut lebih penat sebab anda ketua, so ketua memang kene buat lebih!

Hebat bukan, insan yang bergelar isteri & ibu pada masa yang sama?
Saya bukan puji diri sendiri, tapi selepas mengalami sendiri pengalaman ini, saya amat menyanjungi ibu saya sendiri dan para ibu yang bekerja tanpa ada bibik di rumah.
WELL DONE to us!!!

The journey of a magical experience

Wah..lama gle x update! Dari sebelum bersalin sampai la umur baby dah sebulan... Biasala, busy yang teramat sgt... This time, I want to share some of my experience of being a pregnant lady, and the experience of giving birth.


The Pregnancy

Both husband and I plan to have a baby. But not this soon as we thought that I will only conceive a few months after stop taking my pills. But His plans are better. Alhamdulillah, my pregnancy was a very smooth one. But not that easy as I was quite tensed up by pressure from BPG (thanks to her for all the mess). Nasib baik dpt gak graduate.

Although the pregnancy was uneventful, I gained so much weight even though I didn't a lot. Mengidam..takde sangat, tapi selera berubah-ubah. Kejap nak makan tu, kejap nak makan ni. Yang tak berubah cuma fav drink: Sunkist Orange Juice. Hopefully, I will get my pre-pregnancy weight and shape back ;p


The Labour

Pagi sehari sebelum kelahiran Mohd Raihan, I had a weird dream and suddenly I felt a kicking from inside my womb. I was shocked, awaked from my sleep and quickly stood up. And there was a trickle of water coming out. Tak panik pun sebab tak rasa sakit. Confuse ada la; is it really coming? So I call my husband yang tgh ada important meeting, and he said: 'Nak abang balik ke?' Haha. Funny.

We went to the doctor and she said I had a leaking and labour is still far away, it will be tomorrow. So we went to One Utama to buy our cats' food and had tea at Old Town, then we off to the birthing centre.

That night, contractions coming in slow and steady at first, then fast and furious. I couldn't sleep at all. Bengang je dgr my hubby berdengkur sedangkan I ni menahan sakit macam nak berguling-guling. Nak tunggu pukul 4 pagi sementara doktor dtg utk bagi pain killer rasa macam bertahun-tahun. Dah bagi pain killer pun still sakit and x leh tido. Lapar tapi whatever goes in, went out. Sepanjang mengandung tak pernah muntah, ni la baru pertama kali...

Finally, my OBG doc came in and said I am going to the labour room. Can't wait for the pain to be over. Dah masuk labour room tu, doc heran apsal air ketuban x pecah2, so she did it for me. X sakit pun tapi rasa pelik air tu keluar. Haha. Then, she injected oxytoxin in my drip. After that, the contractions were really strong and painful. Allah je tahu macam mana sakit nye. Tak pernah rasa sakit sampai macam tu skali. Macam sakit maha senggugut! The doc said it will be 4 to 6 hours before the baby arrive, and I couldn't imagine how I am going to survive with the pain.

Thank God it wasn't that long. After 1 hour or so, I had the urge to push. So, I pushed and pushed with any energy that was left inside of me, and then finally, I heard the nurse said: 'Dah nampak kepala baby, cepat panggil Doktor Ummul!'. Pastu, lg la semngat I push, then Mohd Raihan pun kuar.....sume sakit pun hilang..............



Being pregnant and giving birth is really an experience so special that Allah swt granted to women only. Walaupun susah dan sakit, penghujungnya amat best skali. Now only I truly understand why Allah swt says we have to put our mothers first before our father.

The ups, downs and swings of the pregnancy

I am still digesting the fact that I have a being developing inside my womb. I am still unable to imagine what our life would be like with the coming new little member. I can't imagine what kind of mother I will be. Just one thing: I love the way my body is changing itself.

Some people ask me whether I have extraordinary 'mengidam' or not. Well, I don't really have one (or more). But here are 3 things that I want to share with you:

1. I crave for various food. Sometimes, I like to eat Gardenia Butterscotch bread. The next day, I want to throw up from just looking at the same bread. And today, I really really want to have McD chocolate sundae. I notice that I like spicy food and sweet desserts nowadays. Tom yam, masak lemak cili padi, asam pedas, ice-cream, cheese cake, frosted cake, chocolates.....
Mesti nnt the baby pun same. Haha.

2. Sometimes, I have mood swings. I just feel like crying for unknown reasons. I hate this when it happens as usually I am alone at that time. The swings know the right timing to hit me hard.

3. I can't wait for my belly to get bigger. Membuyung bak kata some of my friends. Must be really exciting to see me become so large like a living, land, walking whale.


Got to go now. See you again soon! **

Entering a New Phase

I stopped taking my pills early March. Some may think that it is too early for me to get pregnant and have a child. But I have faith in God's decision and in myself. I am a strong woman, I have always been.

Thinking about how I got to learn the fact that I am pregnant, it is quite interesting. I could feel that I am conceiving although the 3 pregnancy test I took told me otherwise. And I keep insisting my hubby to buy me pregnant moms' milk even though the tests were negative. Finally, one day, my hubby listened to me. We bought a pack of Mamil Gold milk, as well as another pack of pregnancy test.

I was very 'ciwi'. Couldn't wait for a few days before taking the test. So, before we went to sleep that night, I quietly took the test, alone, without my hubby knowing. And, voila! The other line showed up, although not very clear. It wasn't clear, but it was there. I was trembling, not knowing how should I react to the result, so I shouted, calling my hubby who was watching telly at that time. He was so happy that he almost cried.

So the next day, we went to see a doctor. A saiko doctor. He could not believe that I am pregnant as I just stopped taking the pills for less than a month. But, hey, 'kun fa yakun'! Boleh pulak doc tu tnye, "Ni kalau betul jadi, u nak simpan ke?' I was shocked, but I answered 'Yes, of course'. Heee....benci btul ngn doc tu. Bukannye nak ckp tahniah, tnye soklan gila pulak. We are not going to that clinic ever again!

I know some of my friends are worried about how I will go through my practicum in my pregnant state. I am very positive that I will be okay. Pray for our well-being, ok? But still, I am a normal human being, not a super human. Maybe at times I will feel very dead tired, hopefully you guys can support me at those times :)

Quick Update

Well... I know it has been ages since I last updated my blog. My life is unbelievably busy! I have never experienced such a busy life before this. Maybe now that I am married, I have more commitment and work to do, but I still have the same amount hours like other eligible bachelors out there, which is 24 and not 48 hours! As I have less time, but more work that others, I will just write a very quick and compact updates of my current life:

1. I think I have slightly gained weight. Maybe because of blissful happiness. Tipu la kalau I kata I tak kisah, kisah jugak sikit2, sampai kena tegur dgn my hubby because I always complain that I am now fat and he doesn't think that way. Anyway, what is more important is that I lead a healthy eating habit: No junk food! (but I cannot resist sweet temptations..cakes..ice-cream...yummmmy.... ;p)

2. I now have a baby. A cute, michivieous and naughty fluffy Persian kitten, named Marsha. No photo of her yet. I am still trying to find my leisure time to do all the uploading of the photos.

3. I hate the current Malaysian education system! There are still lots of conservative educators who still believe their way of teaching is the right one. Unable to open up their old minds to accept changes. Wait till I become one of the think-tankers...

4. My beloved husband and I now have our own sweet little home (thanks to my parents-in-law). It is small and simple, but it is our heaven. Bak kate seorang ustaz, kalau nak syurga di akhirat, ia bermula dengan syurga di dunia (i.e. kedamaian & keharmonian rumahtangga).

5. I still have the rights to moan about my life now. I know I made the choice to get married early, but I am still a human being. Ciptaan Allah s.w.t. yang kerdil & lemah. Those who said: "Tu la, sape suruh kawen awal". You guys just wait for your time. All I need from you guys is your support, not that kind of reply which sometimes, hurt me :(

6. I now will treat myself by going to the hair salon on a regular basis. Thanks to Hani, whom according to my hubby, : "hei..bahaya betul kawan ngan Hani ni, ajar sayang buat benda2 yg mahal!" (p/s Hani: Abul gurau je, eheh ;p)

7. For this month (March 2009), my hubby and I have spent a total of RM 10 000 ++. However, it is because of a useful invesment: buying furnitures and other essential things for our new home. However, it still doesn't change the reality that I am now quite broke!
Haha =D (p/s Suhaimi: sorry for the kaya. It will come, but later sketla ye...).

8. Marriage life is super-duper fantastic.


That's all for now. More coming later (but I don't know when. Biasalah, hidup busy skrg nih)

New Life

Finally, after a few weeks of craziness, I have the time to update my long abandoned blog. Sampai bersawang lah kan, bak kata Suhaimi. Bukannya apa...busy sangat la dik oii... Lepas kenduri tu, kelas pun start, everyday ada kelas, and weekened busy keluar ke sana ke mari. Ni pun x berapa sihat, jadi tak pergi kelas dan berehat. Alhamdullilah...

I am sure, many will ask me, 'How your new/ married life? or Apa rasa dah kahwin?'. Honestly, I don't know how to explain it. But, of course, I am happy. Truly happy and contented. If we think we are happy that we have a girl/boy friend or fiance, that happiness can't be compared with the happiness that a marriage gives us. To have your loved one besides you every day, to see his face and to hear his voice .... it's very blissful. Betapa indah dan sucinya cinta yang Tuhan ciptakan khas untuk suami isteri. Jadi, siapa2 nak bahagia camni, kahwin la cepat2, eheh ;p

Tapi, kahwin bukanlah semata-mata hendak menghalalkan percintaan yang terlarang je. It goes far beyond that. Bagi yang mentua dah sayang, alhamdulillah lah..tapi bagi yang belum, it is a challange for you, Kahwin bukan kahwin dengan si dia je, tapi dengan semua ahli keluarga si dia jugak. As for me, kahwin dengan si dia yang ada big family, memang satu cabaran, tambahan pulak tinggal sebumbung dengan ipar :)

With marriage also, comes a big responsibility. Bukan memadu cinta asmara je. Soal komitmen sudah pasti. Bagi isteri, keperluan suami mesti diutamakan. And for the husband, jangan abaikan kebajikan & keperluan isteri. Both partners have to be sensitive and tolerant. Hehe..cakap pandai je... but I am still learning. Yelah, baru nak masuk sebulan... x pakar pun lagi.. ;p
Dulu, sebelum kahwin, pukul 9 malam masih awal. Tapi sekarang...'Hah, dah pukul 9!'. Bujang dulu, hidup rilex je...rasa lapar, makan, kalau malas masak, buat yang cincai je. Sekarang, tak leh la nak buat camtu. Baju dulu pun, liat nak iron. And now, ironing is like my new hobby. TV pun dah x sempat nak tengok. Ape dah jadi dgn Prison Break, Grey's Anatomy & Desperate Housewives pun tak tau...xde masa nak tengok. Hu....
But all that can't beat the smile of my husband when he comes home from work :))

From my experience, marriage is not that hard. For Muslims, the simple akad is what we need. But as now, most of us have been affected by globalization and materialism, the simple thing becomes an almost imppossible mission. Some may think that I got married at a very young age, but the determination is what matters most. Although I still have another year to go, it does not mean that I can't manage my life better. Ape pun yang terjadi, I believe it happens for the best.

Wedding Nerves

When people ask me, are you nervous now that you are getting married? I always answer no, as I have been waiting for far too long.

But now that the wedding is more or less four more weeks to go, I am actually NERVOUS!
I even get jumpy when I am not doing anything.
I even get jumpier when I actually do something.

Gosh, why am I nervous????

Tagged

What is the relationship of you and him?

My husband.. in the next 37 days, insya Allah :))

Your 5 impressions towards him
1. Caring
2. Responsible
3. Loving
4. Strict
5. Clingy!

The most memorable things he had done for you are
Uncountable.

The most memorable things he have said to you?
I like to keep this private.

If he becomes your enemy, you will
do nothing, coz this is not going to happen.

If he becomes your enemy, the reason is
I betray him, but very unlikely so.

The most desirable thing to do on him is?
Too mushy to describe. I will keep this to myself.

The overall impression of him is
My life, my everything.

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
I am serious.

The character of you for yourself is?
Matured thinking, at least this is what I think of myself.

The character you hate of yourself is?
I love the way I am. Nothing to hate. No body is perfect anyway.

The most ideal person that you want to be is?
Myself, with better, improved personalities.

For the people who care about and like you, say something about them.
I love you, and I will do as long as you do the same too.

* I've deleted the last few parts because its quite tiring to think of 10 people to tag.

More of Maria

The little cute black kitten has grown up into fat, beautiful, gorgeous, clingy cat.
She is so clingy that she will not leave my mum's side.
My mum brings her every where, balik kampung, pegi kedai, isi minyak kereta etc.
Guess now my mum has a new little baby to take care of...

Chocolate Fudge Cake! Yummy!!

I am very choosy when it comes to eating chocolate cake. The cake must have the right amount of moisture, the acceptable level of 'chocolateyness' and enough sweetness and creaminess. In my search for 'The Choc Cake', I came across a recipe and tried baking it for my best friend's 22nd Birthday. And here is the result:

Chocolate Fudge Cake
(note: picture might not give the right justice to the cake's look & taste)

The taste....OOohhhhh.....it's beyond your imagination!! It is exactly 'the choc cake' ever! It was so good that I had it for breakfast for a few days in a row!


And now that the DC disorders hits me again, I am going to bake this again.
Let me know if you want some ;p

A Boost for Motivation

It is 29th October 2008. I have finally done writing my last chapter, complete with all the appendices needed for my dissertation.
Thank you so much to my extremely superb tutor, Katy Salisbury.
The journey is now very close to its end.
It is indeed very amazing.
Splendid.

My Want List

Dear all,

Here I want to share with you my want list of things that I want to have before I am back to Malaysia. I know I am broke now, so by writing this the feeling of brokeness lessen up and the want to browse Amazon or ebay or argos will diminish....

• Prestige pressure cooker
• Multifunction blender
• Kenwood food processor
• George Foreman health grill
• Make up set (for my hantaran)
• Books (education, story and cooking)

Well, that's all. Not a long list anyway.


P/s: Wedding present for me, anyone? I am still waiting for those in bold to be given to me.
Just kidding =D

My Mum's New Obsession

This new obsession has caused her RM 400. Well... I don't mind, it was from her own money, as long as she is happy, I am happy for her too [but I am not very happy that she buang my Boy! Poor little kitty :( Penat I selamatkan and nurture him..huhu.. May he is safe under His protection & love, amin.... ]

So, here is the gorgeous & mischievous little thing...

Btw, her name is Maria.

H.O.M.E.S.I.C.K

I rarely get homesick. Very rarely. Maybe because I am so used to live far from my family. I have started live independently since I was 13, and till now, almost 10 years. But lately, the feeling of homesickness kicks me. It kicks hard.

Malam-malam sebelum tido teringat kat ibu. How hard she has worked to raise us. Banyak benda and pengorbanan yang ibu dah buat. Banyak duit ibu dah guna untuk anak-anak instead of for herself. And now, she is alone at home and has to prepare for my incoming wedding. I feel so sad, thinking that when I come back to Malaysia in December, I will only spend less than 3 weeks with them before my first priority in life changes.

Bila fikir balik, saya rasa sometimes saya ni jahat. Dulu, kecik-kecik, semua keperluan dan kehendak kita ibu & ayah akan sediakan secepat & sesempurna mungkin. Their love for us has begun even before we were born. Their love is boundless. We are their first priority. Kalau kita demam, mesti diorang sangat risau & bersengkang mata jaga kita. Minta itu ini, diorang mesti usahakan. Kalau mereka tak jaga kita betul-betul, belum tentu sekarang kita dapat nikmati hidup sampai ke hari ini; belajar kat oversea and know how big and wonderful and hard life is. No wonder we cannot pay back all that they have done for us! I promise I will take good care of them. They have taken care for me for more than I have taken care for them...

Sekarang, bila dah besar, saya rasa kadang-kadang saya ni jahat. Sebab bila ibu @ ayah mintak tolong, e.g. buatkan air, kdg2 saya cakap "kejap" or "nanti jap, tunggu iklan dulu". Huhu..sampai ayah saya tegur kitorg "Amboi..kalau nak mintak tolong, asyik kejap je... Tapi bila mintak duit, tak boleh tangguh langsung!" Hoho. Teruk betul. Dulu, waktu kecik-kecik (belum sekolah lagi), sampai pernah terfikir, ibu ngn ayah ni suka ada anak sebab nak suruh kitorang buat kerja ke? Adoi...tapi nasib baik tak cakap kt diorang, simpan dlm hati je ;p

My beloved ibu once said to me, "Nanti kamu dah jadi ibu, baru kamu tahu". I am scared now. Tak tahu sama ada nanti saya mampu menjadi ibu yang baik. Tak tahu sama ada saya akan bersedia memikul amanah yang berat tu. And for now, I just pray to Allah swt to make their life & afterlife easier and may He puts them in the same group of blessed people. I know I am not a good servant, but I hope God will not punish them for all the bad things that I have done, and put them in His heaven, ameen...

Because of You

Because of you,
I am sleep deprived,
And now I have a pair of panda eyes .

Because of you,
I have to leave my soap dramas,
And now I am less entertained .

Because of you,
I have to abandon my hobbies,
And now I am not an avid reader .

Because of you,
I am sometimes depressed,
And now I bake a lot .

Because of you,
I have to be best friend with the library,
And now my room is full of books .

Because of you,
I have to spend endless hours in front of my laptop,
And I get headache now and then.

Because of you,
My dissy,
I will forgo my needs,
Just for you,
So that in 2010,
I will have my Honours degree,
For you,
I will.

Tears of The Ultimate Happiness

Happiness is what all humans are looking for in this life. Some look for it in wealth. Some look for it in friendship. Some look for it in relationship. I am no exception. Being a bit unhappy lately, and had had some issues, have made me wondering, where and how can I find the ultimate happiness...

Happiness,
it doesn't lie in a good relationship with humans.
It lies in a strong relationship with Him.
For HIM is the greatest friend,
Who is always be by our side.

He is still by our side even we abandon Him,
He, who always and still gives a hand,
He, who always guides and guards us every second,
helping us in ways we never realize,
showers us with endless love,
even we forget Him,
even we do what He dislikes.
even we say we love Him but we don't really mean it.

Sometimes we cry, hurt by what our friends did,
we cry, cry and cry hard.
We feel a bit relieved after that.
But still, don't we feel that our heart is still unhappy?
Can't we feel the emptiness?
Why are we still unhappy?
Where is the happiness??

Happiness,
it does not lie in wealth,
nor good friendship.
For all of these are temporary.
They will be gone,
when we are gone.

Happiness,
It lies in the tears,
Tears of crying for Him,
crying for His mercy and love.
These tears,
tears of the ultimate happiness,
the utmost tranquillity,
is to be gained,
not given.
Gain it,
and we will be happy,
for beyond eternity.

"Sesungguhnya hari keputusan itu adalah waktu yang dijanjikan bagi mereka semuanya, iaitu hari yang seorang karib tidak dapat memberi manfaat kepda karibnya sedikitpun, dan mereka tidak akan mendapat pertolongan, kecuali orang yang diberi rahmat oleh Allah. Sesungguhnya Dialah Yang Maha Perkasa lagi Maha Penyayang." (Ad-Dukhaan: 40-42)

P/S: Ya Allah, peliharalah kami daripada kejahatan diri kami sendiri...

Don't say you care when you don't .

We always say that we care about our friends. But the reality is, do we really care? Or do we just care or thought of them when we need something from them? Or when we have not seen them joining functions for a long time? Contohnya, nak mintak tolong proofread assignment or beli barang kt ASDA dan bermacam-macam lagi. I am sick of these kind of people.

I am not saying I am such a wonderful person and friend. Tapi, I write this based on my experience. I hate the way they treated me. I did so much to win their hearts and affection, but what I got in return was bad words about me. Back stabbing as some people call it. Syafwah ni la.. tu la.. I tak boleh minum susu lembu pun jadi isu. Sedangkan dengan diorang, I lapang dada je, as I know we are different human beings who can never be the same. Nothing that I do is good enough for them. I always accept the way they are, but they never will accept me as the way I am.

A very close friend of mine always advise me not to think of them too much. But I am a girl with a very sensitive heart which makes me always think of they treatment towards me. Walau telah lama berlalu, kadang-kadang kalau teringat, mesti nak nangis..huuu...

For me, kalau nak berkawan biarlah ikhlas. Terima kawan tu seadanya and care for them with all your heart. I am thankful for now I have met real friends, and one of them will stay by my side always. If only I have met you earlier...

We are not real friends if what makes me cry will make you cry too. To them, you are forgiven, but this hurt that you have caused can't never be forgotten.

Tagged, I Have Been. (special credit to Hani Iryani bt Adnan)

Rules::-

* Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
* Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
* Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
* Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Haiyoo... amende alah la tag-tag ni.. I thought of clothing tag when I first heard of this tagging thing. How technology has enriched the meaning of normal words. Nak share ape pun tak tau..nothing is interesting about me, I guess.
Anyway, here are 7 facts about this girl named Nurul Syafwah binti Raduan, borned 5th March 1986.

1. I may look 'tough' from the outside, but inside, I am very sensitive. Senang sangat nak nangis kalau sedih. When I knew my beloved youngest brother got cancer, I cried the whole time, resulting in a week of high fever. And this sensitive heart of mine can be hurt easily. My best mates know this fact very well..hehehe ;p It hurts easily, but it mends quite easily too. All I need from the person who don't mean to hurt me is a simple apology, and it is over, and I can smile again. *peace* :)

2. I just love baking and cooking. I started baking when I was still small, because my mom said I was always playing in the kitchen. Having a weeping and problematic brother who cried at all times and took my toys, making me always playing alone in the kitchen. Poor little sister. My mom said, pernah satu hari, diorang risau I diam je, tak tau kat mana, rupa-rupanya doh tumbuk ikan bilis dalam lesung batu. I was one year ++ at that time. And I still remember till today, I was baking cookies (I was 12) when my now-soon-to-be-mother-in-law walked in the kitchen and said: Wah, rajin si Nurul ni! Boleh buat menantu, utk si Eddy (my fiance's elder brother). And same with Hani, I will resort to these activities whenever I am feeling down and tensed up, I will go to the kitchen and make something edible from my kitchen cabinets and fridge. The best part is, I don't eat what I have cooked, instead, I give to my friends. Strange as it is, I like to eat shop-bought cakes although I know how to bake them. But hey dear friends, this is a fact that is not to be manipulated! (eg. make Syafwah emo, and she will cook or bake something for us!)

3. Riding bicycle is a HUGE trauma for me. This happened in the year 2005 or 2006 when all of B.Ed TESL students in IPBA went for a field trip to Putrajaya. Kan most of us naik beskal tu, and unlucky me, lost control of my bike when going down a hill...and....bump!!! Bump into a huge bricked lamp post and thrown out from the bike into the bushes. OUCH!! Sakit tau..dah la jatuh sorang2. . Bruised all over my right shoulder and hip, scratches and sprained on my legs. Naseb tak lama lepas tu ade abg-abg yg jage tempat tu ronda naek motosikal, so they help me. I got a week m/c for this as I can't walk properly. Cycling? Never again, except yang ada roda 4, ehehehe xD (So Warid and Hazriq, don't mention of cycling to IPBA from Kerinchi, ok?)

4. I always get hurt in friendship. Over the years, I always end up with people who don't apprieciate me, people who always take me for granted, people who can't accept me as I am and back-stabbed me. I ni bukanlah kawan yang perfect, but I can truthfully say that I always try my best to help and make them happy because I love my friends. But to those people, ape yang I buat mesti tak kena. I have done so much for them, but all I got in return is hurt (time tulis ni pun rasa sedey)... That is why most of the times, I prefer pets that human beings (oh and until now, I have dreams and nightmares of my hamsters!). To those people yang buat I macam ni and read this, sorry to say, from now on, you bear no significant in my life, not for now, and not for ever, until time heals this wound.

5. Okay, honestly, I have no idea on what to say about me. Erm..I am quite straight-forward, a fact that can't be changed. I am sorry to those I have hurt without intention. Tapi kalau dah biasa, tak de la bisa sangat, hehehe...ade je org yg lagi straight-forward from me. But, again, sorry if I ever hurt your feelings.

6. I have been in love with the same man for almost 10 years now. More details? Later.

7. The fact: I am engaged. Soon to be married with the same man end of this year, Insya Allah.

Well, those are some facts about me. More are indescribable.
I don't have any idea who to tag. I tag only two for the time being. The lucky people are:

1. Nadeera
2. Gunalan

That is all for now. Got to re-write the revised Chapter 1. Good luck to me, and you too. xx